I'm just an animal looking for a home

Journal Entry


Note:  The only changes to this entry are minor corrections to grammar, punctuation, formatting, and spelling.  I’ve also removed any last names which appeared, except in the case of teachers.

“Why My Life Sucks”

“Reasons Not To Live”

(based on personal experience)

  1. Corruption
  2. Crime
  3. School
  4. Having nothing better to do than to write complaints to a journal
  5. Lack of sleep
  6. Work
  7. Cameron likes Maile
  8. Cameron took Maile home today
  9. Maile doesn’t know that I love her
  10. Homework
  11. Parents
  12. Low average IQ
  13. Lack of money
  14. I have very few real friends
  15. Curtis spits on me
  16. Sabrina doesn’t love me
  17. I’ve lost contact with Kirsty
  18. Mrs. Hood
  19. Mr. Timms
  20. Not seeing Maile
  21. Pressure
  22. Boredom
  23. Me
  24. Nobody would die for me (not that I WANT them to)
  25. Nobody “likes” me (This list could go on FOREVER!)
  26. Alarms
  27. Cleaning my room
  28. I’ve only kissed two girls
  29. I’ve only really liked ONE of the girls I’ve kissed, and she really didn’t want to
  30. All the girls I’ve ever loved haven’t loved me
  31. Money
  32. No fun in my life
  33. Lies
  34. Spite
  35. Accusations
  36. Maile hasn’t read my journal
  37. Defeatism
  38. Being suicidal
  39. Dress code
  40. I have around 60+ years left to live
  41. Life gets harder
  42. Hypocrites
  43. Jealousy
  44. Cameron
  45. Maile’s parents getting mad at her for talking on the phone

“Reasons To Live”

  1. Maile
  2. Sabrina
  3. Natascha
  4. Copper
  5. Brittany
  6. Kirsty?

Much shorter, huh?

Why can’t anyone ever share my feelings?  I’m just so fucking depressed and I have nothing I can do about it.  I might be able to call Maile, but she gets in trouble for talking on the phone, and I don’t want her in trouble!  I have caused enough problems in my life.  I need a real way to express my eternal love for Maile.  I don’t know if her reading this is enough!

If Maile does not come over and read my journals tonight, I’m going to write her a note in French (in the French language, I mean) and tell her to come over after school!

Cameron is a bastard!  He drives Maile home!  Jealousy is HELL!


Author: mitcharf

vegan, curmudgeon, animal lover, feminist, agnostic, cat whisperer, bookworm, hermit, Red Sox fan, Cthulhu enthusiast, softball player, man-about-town

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